I'm writing this to you with no intention on sending this to you anytime soon or too distant.

But I want to tell you I remember. I remember sitting on your lap as you vibrated me up and down on your knee as if you were a horse. I remember taking naps on your chest in the afternoon after you got home from work. I remember holding you when you were crying after finding out your mom had passed away.

I want to tell you I can relate. I can relate to you when you would spit your pickles out yet eat tomatoes like it was water. I can relate to you when you would just watch television for hours if there was nothing at all do around the house or in the community. I could also relate when mom left and how distant from the world you felt.

I want you to know that even though sometimes you may disappoint me, in the end you are my dad. And I am lucky to have someone like you. Someone who cares, someone who can break down and know I will be there , and someone I know will be there for me.

I love you, dad.

I just want to thank you for being the caring and giving guy you have been all this time.

When you leave, I promise I will be hopefully a great dad like you, if not better.

-Wilkins

I don't want just sex. I don't want to be the guy that you come to because you like him so much and you know he likes you too, but you just cant be in a relationshiop due to circumstances. Sure, we're busy, but I just want to know that you will be there for me. Being in a relationship with you would secure that. And if you don't want ot be in a relationship, tell me. Don't tell me that we both have busy lives. That has always been true, but through it all, I just want you. Plain and simple. No reasoning or complex dialogue. I just want you. And if I can't have that, tell me.

I care about you. But I value myself more and don't want to compromise myself for you. It'll suck not connecting with you intimately, but it's better this way if you don't want a relationship.

-wilkins